Rigid

Do you know that your history is imprinted in your body? Every experience, every feeling and emotion, every thought, have their parts that made you who you are now. Whether you realized it or not, each has shaped your personality, you. I didn’t notice one or two things before, but the more I think about it, the more I know. When I analyse how did I get here, everything started to come back to me. As I grow less younger, things changed. And don’t get me wrong, I knew that. Theories have told me many and I too, have learned well. Little that I know, once you faced those changes, the hard part is to cope with everything. To be fully aware of what happened and also of what will come in your way, that is the critical phase you have to choose. Because every decision you make, it will be written and traced.

To the question how did I get here, I’d like to think of it as a choice. Whatever I’ve seen, heard, and observed, have thought me to learn being on my own. Not only that, I need to be okay with that. I successfully managed to be as that. I even have gone way beyond what I thought I could be at. I am no longer looking for accompanies, those ‘I-don’t-care-why-I-just-want-to-go-out’ moments, forgettable flings. I’m good on my own.

Just when I thought I’ve done good, a good friend of mine said something to me which again has made me wonder. After taking all to consideration, I realized that maybe it’s time to take a different approach to life. Disappointment will always happen and life keeps evolving. Pulling away and playing it too save won’t teach me much. Putting myself out there and getting hurt maybe will. I’ve decided to learn more and know even more.

That is a choice, mine.

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